i already graduation from undergraduate course two years now

in the past two years,i growth a lot i think it is most fast improve period during my life

The past two years is vividly present in my mind although i think it go so quick every details are are absolutely clear

If I met myself from two years ago, I could teach a lot of things, because I've already improved a lot

work

my work have a very big shortcomings: Years and years of frequent business trips one year maybe 300 days are outer work. and should rent an apartment by myself

The workload isn't heavy. Maybe for now, I'm still just a junior engineer More work was given to the old employee,I'm just a small soldier,Only follow instructions, then get to work.

I don't learn a lot technically from this job,Because AI growth is very fast now, in the first half year after I joined

financial

have cultivate many great habitat

1. start bookkeeping,create a iphone auto bookkeeping app base on recognize banks SMS
2. start investment, most of funds are in us market
3. know a lot of finance knowledge ,even create a channel in douyin introduce related content

future / dream

how will my life pass ?

when i more younger time ,i think is earn lot of money ,and retire ,enjoy life

but know i think continuously walk in chase dream road is the most let me excited things The process of the event is the most fascinating, rather than results.

which is my biggest dream now? my inspiration come from a movie called <一念天堂>

i want experience different life , i dont want every day is same and sink into a cycle

i want living in different country, work in a different field

i want sit in a self driving tesla Take me through the streets and alleys of America.

want lying in Thailand beach , look blue sky and swimming

and want to help other people and obtain other respect .

but unfortunately ,if i continue do this work and don't speed up the pace , maybe Dreams like above can never be realized.

The life golden period is very short. Most people's lives are already over, after their possibilities have disappeared As I get older, I feel my interest in everything is declining,I don't know what I will do in the future. And if I can do that well ,so what?Then what? Maybe I've fallen into a bit of nihilism

Okay, the above is some of my complain ,Actually, I clearly know that the foundation of achieving my dream is having a stable financial base

We'll feel a little desolate,Because since I was young, I do things because I'm interested in them, but now I do them for money.